Anticipation

There are several challenges I have to overcome on a daily basis: physical, emotional and mental.

There are times where I have to battle negative self-talk. When this occurs, I have to remind myself who I am and who I was created to be.

Living with a disability has made me dependent upon people to complete my tasks. Most of the time, this is very difficult for me.

I know I have no control over these types of circumstances. I have learned to give up to God. This is the best way I have found anyway.

I am anticipating upcoming events that excite me:

I am becoming more independent and efficient on my computer.

I am enrolled in the journalism program.

I know that there are many more exciting things to come.  These kinds of things inspire me to keep going.

My Vow

I vow to live for You whole-heartedly and to be devoted to you always.

I vow to pursue justice.

I vow to speak for those without a voice.

I vow to protect the poor and the children.

I vow to write the words of truth.

I Pray

I pray for mercy. I pray for grace. I pray for revelation. I pray for wisdom.

It pains me when I witness some of the situations around me. I feel very helpless. I don’t know what to do. It is very upsetting to me.

Sometimes I just want to walk away because I can’t be there.

This is one of the many disadvantages of having a disability. There are times when I desire to step in but it is not my place to. All I can do is just pray and ask for His wisdom.

Writing it down helps as well.

Living in the Moment

During my life time I have had the opportunity to participate in many events. They are great and unique experiences. I am very blessed to be a part of them.

Living in the moment is very important to me. There are so many amazing things happening at once I try to take it all in and I enjoy drinking it in.

Sometimes people around me focus on the negative aspects instead of the positive ones. I don't understand why. This makes it difficult for me to express how I am feeling at the time.

When I am in that place I am taken to other levels.

Some moments are historical and I feel should not be taken for granted. I am privileged to be a part of just a few of these occasions.

I was also reminded on a practical level that there are certain issues that have to be addressed and I can accomplish this through my writing.

A Big Perspective of God

If I didn't have a big perspective of God I don't know where I would be. I am glad that God made me who I am - a positive, happy person.

I believe I would be an anxious and depressed person without it.

Don't get me wrong. I have my good days and bad days. I constantly have to tell my Flesh man to die in order for my spirit man to arise.

God has been showing me ways to accomplish this by being with Him and reading His Word.

Trusting in God is another key that I attempt to live by. God is the only one I can truly trust in. He is always faithful to me. He is always there for me. He will never leave me. God is greater than any situation that I may face. He never gives me more than I can handle.

No Limitations to What God Can Do.

God is central in the ordinary events of my life.

Whether I am reading my Bible, visiting with friends, or reading any of my other favourite books, God can speak to me anytime or anywhere.

There are times when I become frustrated by the circumstances around me. During these times I go off by myself and relax.

This summer I participated in a dance production. I was very thankful to be a part of it. It rekindled a spirit of intercession within me.

This production has given me the opportunity to speak not only for myself but for others with disabilities as well.

In the midst of the dance I feel free and beautiful. I knew I was where I supposed to be at that moment. The person who portrayed me in the dance represented me very well. She expressed what I had in my heart through dance.

God knows the hidden desires of my heart. He will fulfill them if He wills it.

Taken Away

When I listen to music often I am taken to another place. God comes and envelopes me in His presence. We connect Spirit to spirit.

In His presence I can picture Him wrapping His arms around me and holding me close. He speaks to me in that place because I have my ears wide open.

Sometimes I can see myself dancing with Him.

Reminded of Many Truths

God is wisdom. God is above all wisdom. He is everything.

When I was reading my Bible the other day, I was reminded that my Heavenly Father is always with me. I can communicate with Him every second of every day. He will guide me and my footsteps. I must ask Him to open my ears in order for me to hear His voice. This is possible by just being with Him.