Wednesday, December 29, 2010


Allow me to invite you into my sanctuary.
Where I pray and where the presence of God often abides.
Where I sit quietly in my solitude with my thoughts.
I am able to think freely and clearly without any inhibitions.
Where I can write creatively and be released.
Let me introduce you to a few significant items within my sanctuary.
A silver metallic statue which symbolizes three experiences in my life.
Two lovers embracing one another.
A bridegroom and his bride gliding across the floor at their wedding feast.
A father and his daughter taking their first dance at her wedding.
Next to it, a group of figurines sprinkled with drops of love left behind by the people who gave them to me.
Each individual piece has a special meaning.There are many secrets yet to be revealed.I hope you enjoyed the tour of my sanctuary. 

Blown In Trials

I have faced trials that have blown in from every side.
Watching with my eyes wide open.
Stripping away the garbage of selfishness and other things of this world.
The only thing left is my relationship with Christ.
Must be clothed in holiness.
Must be clothed in righteousness.
Must be clothed in peace.
Must be clothed in purity.
I am unable to do this on my own.
I gaze up to the heavens for His help and direction.

Whirl Wind

It has been a whirl wind of a year.
Filled with highs and lows.
Twists and turns around every corner.
Mountains and valleys to climb and descend.
Straight and narrow paths to decipher and explore.
Although I have experienced difficult times my relationship with Christ has remained solid.
A foundation on which to stand.


Silence the confusion within my head.
Silence the torment within my soul.
Silence the questions that I possess within my mind.
Help me pursue my goals and dreams.
Help me in my decision making process.
Help me look to You always.

No Limits

Endless possibilities.
Endless peace.
Endless joy.
Endless shaping.
Endless sculpting.
Endless moulding
Endless restoration into His image.

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

The Other Side

I feel as though I am living in a bubble.
Dazed and confused.
Not knowing which way is up and which way is down.
I know that God has much more for me, even in the midst of my trial.
I must refocus my eyes on Jesus.
There comes a point where I must say to myself:
"Enough is enough!"
Where the warrior Spirit must be reawakened within me once again, in order to press forward.

Monday, July 26, 2010

The Moonlit Sky

As I lay down to sleep,
I gazed out my my open window.
My drapes fluttering in the gentle breeze.
The moon peaked over the horizon.
This white glowing ball, just barely lit up the backdrop of the night sky.
The light from the moon came streaming through my window.
I was mesmerized by this sight, it was so beautiful.
I looked away for a few moments, as it disappeared behind a cloud.
On it's way to take its rightful place to begin it's journey once again.

Elevated by Your Presence

I am elevated in Your presence.
Your presence quenches my thirst.
Your presence suppresses my hunger.
I feel as though I am upon a cloud, suspended in the air,
not wanting to come down at times.
I want to stay up there forever.
Your presence is everything to me.
It is indescribable.
When chaos is happening around me,
it keeps me grounded.
It brings me peace.

Monday, July 19, 2010

A Deep Groan

A deep groan.
I can't explain.
A smoldering flame.
A flickering flame.
A rekindled flame.
A burning flame.
I am tired of being lukewarm.
I desire to spit it right out of my mouth.
I desire to burn red hot.
A raging fire.
A consuming fire.
For everyone to see.
For You and Your glory.

Monday, July 12, 2010

Rising from the Ashes

Thank You for lifting me from the ashes,
As I gaze into your beautiful face. 
Your piercing eyes of Love welcome me.
Thank You for lifting my soul up to the heavens.
Thank You for keeping me safe and holding me close in Your arms.
Thank You for giving me the tools to keep me occupied, although it was very difficult at times.
Thank You for surrounding me with people who cared, especially my mother who held me in her arms until the pain subsided.
This too is for Your honour and glory.
There is a greater purpose behind this, although it is not clear at this very moment.
You shine through me in the darkness.

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Honour and Glory

There must be more.
We long to feel Your tangible presence.
We long for You to come with Your healing power and heal us.
We desperately need Your touch.
We long for You to come and fill us with Your strength, peace and love.
Embrace us.
We long for You to bring salvation to our land.
It is all about You.
It is all for You.
It is all because of You.
We cannot take any credit.
You deserve all the honour and glory there is.
You deserve it all.

Tug A War

Sometimes I feel as though I am in a tug a war within myself.
When people see me they often see a person with a disability.
I have goals and dreams as everyone else does.
I accomplish them.
I am not defined by my disability.
I am a woman who knows what she wants.
I also have a romantic side.
I am a writer.
I am a social worker and a soon to be journalist.
I have many gifts and talents to offer.
I am a sister and daughter.
I desire to be a wife and mother one day.
I wish people would see me for who I am.

Friday, June 25, 2010

Drawing In The Harvest

It's time to stop being selfish.
It's time to stop being complacent.
It's time to look outside ourselves and see what is happening in the world.
God has created us to worship and has chosen us to assist Him.
He didn't have to.
We're on a mission to dust off our broken and misshapen armour
And to put it back on again.
There is no time to waste.
Now is the time to take a stand.
Now is the time to take lost souls gently by the hand and lead them to the One who saves.

Monday, June 21, 2010

Broken Humanity

I found myself staring at a man with lines deeply etched upon his face.
His eyes glassy and glazed over.
He held a styrofoam cup absentmindedly in his hand.
His mind seemed to be wandering in every direction imaginable.
I found myself wondering what he was thinking.
Was he longing for a drink?
Was his skin crawling, awaiting his next fix?
Was he wanting to die? Or wanting a way out? Was he waiting for someone, anyone, to reach out and pull him out of his endless pit?
Was he just a man who was hungry? Or thirsty?
Did he have a family to provide for?
Or was he just a man who needed an embrace?
I was surprised at all these questions racing through my mind.
I watched as people ignorantly passed him by.
My heart ached for him.
I found myself beginning to pray for this man.  This man who I didn't even know.
This man who needed salvation as much as I do.

Friday, June 18, 2010

Let Your Light Shine For All to See

Let your light shine for all to see.
Be your authentic self.
God has given you unique gifts and talents.
Be who He meant you to be.
It is difficult to contain myself.
I have such great news to share with the world.
All it takes is a smile
A song
A dance 
A cup of cold water
A story to be told.
Don't be ashamed and let your light shine for all to see.

Monday, June 14, 2010

Illumination Declaration

I am overcome with gratitude.
You rescue me from despair.
There are no words to express the gratitude I have for you.
You grant me vision.
You grant me new and fresh ideas every day. 
They rush in like a flood.
I am like a small child discovering hidden treasures.
I am overwhelmed with gratitude.
It is indescribable.
There are no words except "thank you."

Paid in Full

High praise.
Praise rises up from the highest heights, to the deepest depths.
You were bruised and beaten for me.
Your eyes stare into mine with compassion and forgiveness that will ever be imprinted in my mind. 
It is difficult to comprehend this image with my natural eyes, but my spiritual eyes are wide open.
You carry my frustrations.
You carry my fears.
You carry everything for me.
The red ribbons upon Your back symbolize Your love for me .
The empty cross reads : paid in full.

Monday, May 31, 2010

I am Amazed

I am amazed by Your manner towards me.
I am amazed how Your steady hand keeps me from falling.
By Your overwhelming kindness.
By Your overwhelming generosity .
By Your overwhelming mercies towards me .
I am amazed. 

Friday, May 21, 2010

A Whisper Away

He is always there surrounding you. A whisper away. He is a call away. His presence is like a heavy dew after the rain. He is always there during your sorrow and grief. He is just a whisper away. His hand tightly grips mine. He never lets go. His eyes are filled with grace.  They burn with passion for me. The whispers are mutual they are never ending between Him and I.

Here Am I

Here am I. I present myself to you. I kneel before You. You take my hand and help me to my feet. You cup my head in Your strong gentle hands and stroke my hair. I give You my everything because You gave everything for me. All of my brokenness. All of my shame and all of my pain. Here I am. I am Yours and You are mine. We are embracing one another in arms of love.

Friday, May 14, 2010

Constant Source

A constant source of love.
A constant source of strength.
A constant source of peace.
A constant source of patience.
A constant source of liquid honey pouring down from above.
A constant source.
A waterfall rushing from the sky.
You are that One and only Source.

Friday, May 7, 2010

Confirmation of Your promises

I believe in Your promises. I trust in Your promises. Your promises are true. You are faithful in keeping Your promises. Your promises never waver. Your promises are the one thing solid that I hold onto.

Total trust

I know that God has much more for me then I ever knew. I just have to snuggle up close to Him and listen to His voice. I know that He has much more for me. I must search for Him and be in His presence more often. I am not very successful at this at times. I know that God holds me tightly in His grasp. He will never let me go. I just have to trust Him totally.

The treasure of wisdom

I know He has His stamp of approval upon me like nobody else does. This is one of the most significant treasures which I have learned throughout my walk with God. Several strategies that I have learned to assist me to accomplish this are:

  • Prayer
  • Reading His Word
  • Being in His presence
  • Communicating with Him often
  • Lifting worship to His throne
  • Listening to His voice
  • Spending time with Him on a regular basis
These are the secrets that I have discovered to Gods treasure of wisdom.

Friday, April 30, 2010


Nobody can prevent me from moving forward. God is the ultimate conductor of my life. He has everything under control despite what circumstances come my way. No man can stand in the way of my goals and dreams. I am walking forward fitted with the whole armour of God. Although I am frustrated with a situation I am not going to let them get in the way of my destiny.

Listening Ear

When I receive an opportunity I tend to run with it. No matter where it takes me and no matter how long it lasts. There are always lessons to be learned. One just has to watch out for them. Don't give up on them just because it may not turn out the way one wants it to at the time. One does not know what the future holds. One must keep going on to the next event in one's life. One never knows where it might lead. One must tilt your ear towards the sky. The wise always possess a good listening ear.

Friday, April 16, 2010

The Cross vs. the Resurrection

The Cross is where I find forgiveness. The Cross is where I find healing. The Cross is where I kneel and gaze into Jesus' eyes and know that He shed His blood for me. The Cross is my safety net and Jesus is my rock hanging upon that tree. The Cross reminds me that He understands my pain. The Cross represents power to me. The Cross represents much more than I could ever express. 

The empty tomb reminds me that I have the risen Christ living in me. The empty tomb represents life after death. The empty tomb reminds me to live life to the fullest. The empty tomb represents the resurrection power of God. 

Healing is intertwined in there as well.    

Tuesday, March 16, 2010


Published in the TRU Omega on March 16th

During International Days I had opportunity to take in a few of the events. Improvisational skits performed in the Clock Tower addressed intercultural misunderstandings. While I was watching them, I began to recall times when I have been misunderstood. Most of the time, I find these experiences more humorous than upsetting.

For those of you who don’t know me, I have Cerebral Palsy and use a wheelchair for transportation. I’m unable to use my hands. The significance of this will become clearer as I continue.

When I go out to a restaurant, I often ask for a children’s menu because the servings are smaller and I have a fairly small appetite. I’ve had servers then ask me if I would like crayons and a coloring sheet. I usually just chuckle to myself and politely decline their offers.

Sometimes when I run into a person that I’ve known for a long time but haven’t seen for a while they will still ask, “Do you remember me?”

Usually I reply, “Yes,” and other times I just have to laugh.

After graduating from the Bachelor of Social Work program here at TRU, I found myself looking for a job. During an interview with a work search coordinator, I shared that I enjoyed writing, was about to publish a book of poetry and had my own blog and she asked, “Oh, do you mean you write with a pen?” Despite it being fairly obvious, this person did not realize that I am physically unable to use a pen and I need adaptive computer equipment to help me write.

One of my favorite pastimes is to socialize and meet new people. I especially enjoy doing this here at TRU. While taking a break from my studies, I often go to the Terrace cafeteria to have lunch, and have just recently discovered the Culinary Arts cafeteria. Although I have been coming to TRU for a few years now, I have only recently ventured out to eat in the cafeterias on campus. Because of my disability, I can have difficulty eating but this is quite normal for me. It may appear that I am choking to death or struggling to breathe, but don’t worry, it really does look worse than it is!

Sharing my experiences with all of you is not meant to deter anyone from approaching me and asking me questions. I simply hope to create awareness of misconceptions and let my fellow TRU students know that I too have felt misunderstood.

Because of the diverse cultural backgrounds, lifestyle choices and abilities that are present on campus, we have the unique opportunity to relate to one another through our shared experiences and ask each other questions. I encourage you all to take full advantage of this opportunity and share your unique perspectives with each other. You may be surprised to find that you have more in common than you think! Feel free to ask me any questions you may have and please don’t be shy!

Friday, February 26, 2010

Help me be wise

Help me be wise oh wise King.

Give me strategic wisdom.

Sometimes my automatic response is anger.

Remind me of the confidence that You have ingrained in me .

Help me make wise decisions and battle with them rightly.

Allow me to pay attention to small nudges that creep inside my heart.

They are a part of the greater picture.

You know what You are doing.

My love letter to You

You are my best friend.
You fill me with passion.
You are my soul mate.
You give me the giggles whenever I think of You.
When I gaze into Your eyes You cause me to become breathless.
When Your Spirit intertwines with mine I feel an undying love.
You know every aspect of my character.
I am forever getting to know Yours.

Healing Waters

Continually dip yourself in the healing waters.
Run and leap in the healing waters.
Dive in the healing waters.
Immerse yourself in the healing waters.
Wade in the healing waters.
Be washed in the healing waters.
Let it pour over your head all the way down to your toes.
The Healer will be there waiting for you.
He will break the bonds of your sickness and disease.

Friday, February 12, 2010


Sometimes as sleep falls upon me at night, my muscles contract and release simultaneously. When darkness fills the room, my arms tighten and tense.

I am unable to relax. It is very painful at times. During these times I breathe and call out to Jesus. He always helps me through it and He whispers to me until I fall asleep.


There are times when I desire to get away from the noise of this world.

To be taken to a place of solitude.

Where I can open my eyes to see Your face.

Where I can open my ears to hear Your voice.

I long to be in that place of solitude once again.

To be intimate with You.

To have Your Word be ever etched upon my heart.

I surrender in that place of solitude.